I am softly stunned. I just read how the Veldt hit Bradbury and it brought me close to tears. He’s speaking my language throughout this book… but it was in this breakdown that I finally understood we … are speaking Theirs.

When I pushawwed the presto-chango to design a lifetime ago… when all of God’s pointing out the tests, the helming, the rough whathaveyous in explanation of how He had it in his cosmic head(s) thaaat it should be me… didn’t work in getting me to go “sure, I’ll do it~”

One card-toss did.

…remember the Veldt?

Thaaat was all he said.

I purred “Fuqqqqqq meeee, maaan~”

INSTANTLY flashed back to the impact of that fucking tale.

All these years later… dude is talking about having carried those lions with him since he’d been like ten years old.

From a book read in a library.

It was the same for me.

Ten.

Inna library.

Except it was …him.

It.

… thaaat fn story.

SOoo “gaaah! My heart! Lol” right now.

1003am, November 1st. 2024.

It’s shyly creepy feeling people key into the b52 all saints- all souls season/ post rawktober vibes. Especially since I’ve moved on and that circle has closed for me. But anything that has the rest of the world championing b52’s and blasting them up into the sky, altering atmospherics… is cool.

I have been asked... "Why do you Hate us?" my response was "Why do you see someone who sees you as hating you?"

The ability to SEE is not hatred.

The fear of being seen is self-hatred. ALWAYS. This caustic inability to be honest With Yourselves...

this forced upon everyone dogma of living lies because you've committed to being miserable living Your hand selected lies... is Over.

That's WHY they did it. Because YOU were cowards. About the heart of things.