Clair…de coeur.

How can you speak on such things & say you’re clean?

You can’t speak on such things the way I have without being clear hearted.

When you understand…where I stand saying all this, the beauty I’m looking out into AS this peace is embraced…

You gotta look at… what you’re finally putting down…to see fully what you were carrying and why. From a space of love. That love keeps you from being re-infected whenever it comes up again.

It freaks people out when I still can say I loved her. I loved her so much that I couldn’t live those lies for her. & she knew it. I now see that my trying to protect my by then adult siblings from her truth was living out another lie.

…so I have stopped. That’s all.