...it's this stunning realization I'm sitting with... that I didn't survive them & "all that. " I literally thrived through it. In all faces. All directions. All times. In real time. Not even " in spite." I absently configured myself to run off the equivalents of postage stamps of what humans deserve to have poured into them, love-wise. I see how badassed that was. I Am. I see how beautiful my...unwillingnesses...are 🥲