Asides

Aw. stahp your whinge-ing. At least you’re fn curious. & If you saw it resonate in their fn eyes then maybe you should take the lead and Get it your damned self. So they are not Compelled To put it in [any cold ] food they offer you without you knowing.

Besides. It’s not a roofie. It’s not ‘drugging’ the narc. FFS. It’s dosing them. To make what their fn grand mammies stopped making that have us all dealing with this mess.

But FOR THE RECORD… They have already Patented L. Reuteri. In 1987. Which means it’s already in Big Pharma’s crosshairs. So they WILL sell it to you for 1000x the price at the most minimally effective dose… and factor in side effects that previously had nothing to do with the “RoUTawai” they’ll start making tv commercials for to you to ask your fn doctor for.

“mwahmwah~ She’s telling Narc-food to drug their Narc’s food!”

“Number one…stop claiming the fn Narcs as your narcs and like a third of the battle is done.

I’m also telling the Emps trapped in the dance to At least ‘dose’ themselves.

..and Maybe as they change…they’ll start to turn the stomach Of said narcs when they try to feed. They’ll start rummaging through your cabinets looking for it because you’ve … changed, even if they haven’t. But you’ll be strong enough to fight after a few weeks on it. You don’t taste it in frozen yogurt or ice cream. Or yogurt. It probably is fine in whipped cream.

I’ll test coconut yogurt and get back to ya~.

“Apparently it means it isn’t advertiser friendly? It’s a form of demonetization. Though, I’m pretty sure it can happen even without turning on monetization.”

YEP. But No monetization demands on this end. Posted purely for the joy of cooking and editing and spreading intel.

SO why… would a series of under 3 minutes[total] YouTube shorts be shadow-banned for showing how Insanely EASY it is to:

  • make your Own yogurt off a quart of whatever real milk or cream you want and a tbsp of yogurt with NO additives ?
  • strain it to make it ‘greek yogurt’ without the $2 mark up and the attendant package shrinking ?
  • make your own whole jar of fruit preserves off of 3 FN pieces of fruit, a tbsp of lime juice and 2tbsp honey ?
  • Heal your gut with L. Reuteri probiotics added to the cold homemade yogurt, completely erasing the difficulties run into trying to make a yogurt of it with traditional processes[ especially in light of that probiotic Loving cold]?

Well Jan,

The effects of L. Reuteri are so intense on the gut biome of humans that it was quietly pulled out of the rotation of probiotics used in our food supply system, when it used to be par for the course. Now 96% of us don’t make it or have scant stores of it…and studies have been shown that it heals many…imbalances,,, that many people face. So having it absent- kids aren’t getting it from parents who didn’t grow up with it… and more mofos are popping out fn psychopaths and ish who literally can’t connect to the environment in sane ways due to fn generational nutrient deficits.

But if you have a population of Narcs…you have a population hell-bent on buying xyzzy to make them look grandiose. You have viral, consumptive fad-addictive folks always looking for the next thing to feed on, too uncomfortable[ literally inside] to stay by themselves, but so toxic they ruin wherever they go- & most importantly… you get all the humans left in their vampiric wake trying to heal in the aftermath by going down those same consumptive paths.

Now personally, I get people who say ” Well, a narc would Never take anything to Heal themselves because they don’t find anything wrong with themselves.” But they’ve never looked into the eyes of a narc until the masks splintered, without wavering.

Narcs KNOW something is fucking wrong with them. They need you to think they don’t know something is like utterly physically wrong with them. But all that showboating has nothing to do with how they are away from whatever version of “the flashing lights” is theirs in their lives.

Imagine a world that doesn’t WANT the Narcs to heal because their fucked behavior destroys the narc AND keeps the entire machine running. You get at least 5 customers to Something outside of themselves letting a rabid Narc roam free, doing all they can to keep the supply around them poisoned enough to keep the jig going. Think of the Narc dance where they want you to be invested in them healing- how weird their eyes get when they get caught up in that song and dance- that strange light…is the truth. They’re fucking trapped in that psychosis of theirs.

& For the record…You are correct. Many would snort coke off a portapotty seat than take a innocuous probiotic that might turn everything around. But how many of them refuse to fucking cook, like they think that’s a flex?If you make their food… Guinea pig their asses to see for yourself.

The scientific literature on this is wild.

& let me be clear. it doesn’t just help Narcs. Fuck Narcs.

I didn’t deep dive this shit for or in spite of narcs. The whole Narc healing shit is a sidebar surprise during the research. Like I said… 96% of the modern population no longer makes this shit and we use to get it from our mothers in the womb and via milk. It amplifies the actuality of your empathy overall.

and that may sound crazy…at first. But real food LITERALLY heals.

I don’t say that all the time to be cute, it’s for my health. It’s why they do their best to deNature everything today’s human consumes. It’s why all the bigpharma stuff synthesizes natural compounds and sells it back to you in negligible doses to keep you hooked, but never healed…as they bury what they got the compound from in science talk designed to put you off the scent.

Read the Scientific Literature. Check out what Dr. Berg and others have to say about it EXPERIENTIALLY. & DON’T BE…afraid.

Start adjacent. HOW?

Try Bulgarian yogurt. The lactos in it are the closest to being sold easily in the states. L. Reuters yogurt. If you’re in the UK you can still get it, I think. The Bulgarian yogurt is in the glass jars with the green or red lids. Sprouts and Whole Foods definitely have it. Get it before they start fucking with it too to “enlarge the market.”

Then order the tablets to simply add to your vitamins and supplements after a few weeks of that…

The “cottage industry” that has sprung up around special incubators at the lower temps’ is capitalism capitalizing faintly, just in case. Eyeing the scene, casing the joint. For a difference of it having to sit at like 90 degrees for 36 hours. But your oven light on warms your oven to what? like 90 degrees. what’s irksome about all of that is not in calling it a grift, albeit a well-meaning one, kinda. It’s that the probiotics actually work phenomenally in cold dishes, you can take the tablets on an empty stomach and they survive to your whathaveyous… & mixing them into ice cream or yogurt you’ve made erases all the melodramatic trepidation put in place as a barrier to entry.

L. Reuteri can change everything, from the inside-out.

Said as the offspring of two lineages of Narcs, who navigates the world with a healthy dose of Dark Empathy to keep myself entertained in the madness we call society these days.

If you have some narcs in your intimate lives who have gotten on your damned nerves for the last damned time…and it’s almost kill or be killed... dose the both of you with it consistently. You might actually be able to get away from one another with minimal harm or demands for you to deaden your entire fn life to do so.

Okay. THAT ‘J-Lo singing of fn Dancing was borderline abusive … but at Least she started trying to try!! Why Do it if you’re not even going to try? Why yall always want to be KNOWN for shit you don’t have the balls to bleed out for real aiming to do?.

…Yall fucking suck with this shit and have damned near ruined everything lowering the fucking bar to play king of the mountain on it.

& AT LEAST …she can facking act her culo off.

He couldn’t even wipe his mouth with a red gloved hand convincingly. Literally! It’s like In the footage. I hope his backup dancers book all the jobs for pouring themselves out mean-mugging this over the finish line.

THANK GOD tha Littles are like ‘WTF IS THIS SHIT?” & ” …this is trash.”

It means there’s fookin’ hope. ALL IS not Fn Lost.

I never had any issue with MGK, even as he was getting hosed by Eminem. Now I get why they were tagging his lazy ass.

There (was&) is N O T H I N G like being a Black American girl in Italy in the 90s with a lil “che cazzo!!!” bite to ya.

… Fuck an American in Paris. I used to SEND bitches to Rome after I came back.

JUST TO GET THEIR HEADS RIGHT. ” YOUR ASS needs to add Italy to your list.”

& it wasn’t Just the men. Real strong Clear hearted Italian women are the closest I’ve ever experienced to what rich black auntie vibes and heart are all about. If she’s a cunt, burn her lol BUT ~ most weren’t. GENx dude wise, their moms went through shit postwar like they were Black women and raised gorgeous, passionate, self sufficient sons in the absence of fathers- and I talk about the lil ole Italian nonnas that descended upon me when I stumbled into their city limits after Greece because my own people didn’t show me the depth of incandescent love they doused me with, along with the olive oil lol.

only time I wasn’t absently ugh over folks comparing tans with mines were those old ladies lol. They loved on me and embraced me because their hair Was like mines long ago, they baked and basked in the sun once too-

People would wrinkle their noses, all “but the racism-!” But they didn’t understand. It’s not just beauty. It’s joy. Like… first of all, I wouldn’t attract that. They’d have to fight through all the rambunctious fuck yeah roma boys who get Black Boy Joy happy when they get going. & There…was something about that American passport. You got to be American in Italy. Then ya got to be a gorgeous Black American woman, then you got to be a tourist who respected their culture enough to leaa in and learn Some fn language before arrival-

I’m just… happy.. there’s still some appreciation outright in Italy For our beauty.

What they don’t tell you (women) is… 

The brunt of issues they have women preemptively panicking about may actually be keyed to decades of Systemic abuse, misuse & indifference…that you can repair by being more conscious about how you move through life, what you put in your body & simply less willing to take bs from men, children and other women. 

Think about the decades of bad eating habits that get literally enmeshed in you not having the time to do right by yourself because you are so busy caring for others.

Think about the insidious diet culture that demands a woman show she’s willing to starve to be accepted in rooms that have already made it clear they do not want her in them.

Think about the backlash from friends and family when you do begin to pay attention to correcting the deficiencies you end up having. Think of how you’re deemed whether you are successful at the gauntlet tossed down to look the part or fail at it.

All of that mess is passively accepted psychological warfare, uniquely attuned to capturing us all. But when you make the moves forward anyway, consciously…just to feel right in your body- possibly “again,” possibly for the first time ever- those shackles dissolve, one by one.

What if hot flashes are an eco-system clarifier that  you were gifted with to headbutt you out of submitting to shit God & the universe never intended for you to submit to?What if people pleasing and over-empathing pushed you to the brink and the toxic load that comes from accepting nonsense as part and parcel to your definition of what it means to be a woman gets purged the older you get, whether you’re psychologically ready to stop being fed upon or not?

What if Your soul  is burning through decades of stored resentment over going along to get along with people who you knew never truly gave a fuck about you… partially because you never felt safe enough around them to introduce them to the true you in the first place?

What if the performative masks you don on autopilot are just bursting into flames against your will…a will that this system programs us to compromise from birth so it can use our energy to lumber along… and that ‘heat’ is just coasting down your body, looking for the safest exit ramp, knowing the nonsense is no longer welcome within you?

…and what if that’s why the ‘best’ they can do is ‘treat the symptoms’ in a system that would rather blow us all to bits if we let it,  due to being primed to combust before it corrects & does right by the feminine half of the energetic equation on this planet?

What if They say ‘women become witches’ the older they get because women reconnect to their autonomy and authority By Design and it strikes terror in the hearts of feeble, evil men… and passion in the hearts of men who’ve been waiting for their women to firebrand the fuck out so they can run wild together in the second half-century of life?

I spent my 30 and 40s watching women navigating all of this like the virgo analyst I am relatively close to my otherwise rather laissez-faire core. & I have a take that it tickles me seeing the 75th wave of genXers stumbling into with all the sincere veracity of the”fuck is this?wtf is that?Fuck this-” vibe we bring to many a thing. This has been two decades in the making , but the time to share what I’ve found is right about…. now.

Okay… soon. Very, very …soon.

Here.

Stay tuned.

-AB

I winced when he said it but…

PEOPLE do not understand that Ralph Lauren’s Club Monaco. BOH. Not an insult. Just a clarification. He comes back to Helm occasionally ( he’s an ancient of days, fashist-wise) but those design room directives for CM down to the store design and visual display were a unified effort spearheaded by RL, almost akin to The factory and diffusion lines for Jcrew( in set-up)… What that quietly means BOH is that they are gonna scrimp where they think it’s unnoticeable to stay with the finishing providers that are Going to give them the most bang for their bucks across all brands under the juggernaut umbrella.

A RL blazer as late as 2006? You might get the finishing of yore, the stitching that would make your mouth water to lovingly count.

But to even survive in the system fast fashion has infected- for a populace that is mostly numb as it is these days?-

Let’s just say if they sold 350 of those $7000.00 blazers…2 to 5 men noticed. 1 made a video. 2 had their personal tailor swap them out (1 may have requested such from the tailoring offered by the brand).& two will echo video dude’s initial heartbreak and simply weigh returning to the brand going forward. Leaving 345 numb, oblivious buyers with it in their closets, worn or not. Ambivalent or indifferent in 2026.

That’d be upwards of 2.4 million dollars.

Minus what it cost to make the blazers. Marketing etc. When you look at what is cost to put brass buttons on 350 blazers in light of how much money they’d make selling them, it’s a pittance that is only a problem to bottom lines due to fast fashion psychology back of house. It means nothing…and yet… everything, in a weird way.

So many biting Ralph Lauren in 2026 are LARPing anyway. Technically so were the old school back in the day Heads. But in the past there was like…moorings to it. Those rocking it today don’t really know Why they’re ‘supposed’ to wear it, only that.

& in a wildly, weirdly Fashist way… maybe those distinctively disinterested in all that… don’t deserve brass buttons.

I was already egregiously ecstatic this week because the Last three /grievechronic\ revisionist art monographs finally set themselves, body-wise. But this Album has wrought a joy nothing else on earth was gonna be able to strum. Talk about an Independence Day weekend. Sheesh. My heart is so fucking full right now.

Let this be the line. If you don’t get this stay the fuck outta my life. You have no Life Expectancy with me if you don’t get this and move accordingly. This is the sonic vetting my actual Mother has thrown down and there will be NO discussion.

The line will be held.

See how fast the fuck you comes if you come around here talking nonsense about this fn drop- I may hit you Lol in your fucking mouth! JAIL! Jail, I Say!! Omg! -This is why Lourdes was like “I wish a Mothafuckah WOULD!!” Maaan!

…& I LOVED Beyonce’s Renaissance…but she’s my gen pov to the sonic world Madonna wrought inside of all of us running ’round free due to her ass. & Bey’s younger than me. This is like… sonically perpendicular.