What I learned when I was 21 or 22 years old is that your “soulmate” riffed the same wave as you on this spiritual plane.

  How big issa wave?

That depends on you and your perception at That moment in time.

  Which wave is yours to be mating up on?

DEPENDS.. on what you Must authentically  surf.

You can make a wave in a teacup or a toilet. Waves can make you in the ocean.

& … this was the key part: you’re Supposed to RIDE.

Whatever wave you want, pretty much. 

Explore all that with your comrades in the trenches of this war called life, your Soul Mates.

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The actual One is probably going to be ambling around the outskirts of you happily fucking around, oblivious to you until you run all that young dumb and queefed fulla cosmos creating cum outta you with gusto anyway, and you to them.

( … I’m preaching to the ladies too😂 . Ain’t no bitch got to the mantle of being called a Hoe masterbating by herself. Somebody’s fucking these literal motherfuckers. It terrified them when you’re ambivalent about it, too.)

There’s so much we embrace as ourselves that’s not us coming up.

Ya gotta safely fuck that out and up offa ya to even have valid  discourse with ourselves about who we actually are.

You won’t know your REAL there can be only One

…until your butt consciously hits the unpaved road to who is really looking back at you in that mirror.

& that still doesn’t guarantee shit but you finding out the truth of you.

Which is why so many hide in false front relationships.

That it’s safer is not actually a lie.

But committing to the BS instead of the go west always ends up as a signature on a death warrant.

Ya gotta live.

What? You gone get with your One and not live? Just waste away as who you had to lie about being to trick them into being with you? To trap them and you with the fake you doing even it can to cockblock your coming out party? If it were even remotely possible that person could be your one, they’d despise you faking the front. Real Talk.& how you react to that defines what you deserve to reap in regards to all that.

If that tamping down is expected of you, if hiding your life lived is unspokenly required of you With that person… then they ain’t it.

…JUST…saying. Lol.

-AB