Category Archive: #ontheroadagain

There are people clamoring to be on the cutting edge, jumping on all the things to "be seen" AS this and that-

No vetting, no due diligence, no even sussing out the shady repetitive roots of the shit- they just wanna be There! &there! and ...there- in the action-

and truly think they're looking down their noses at those Not running around like chickens with their heads cut off with them.

But the reality is... they have been upside-down the entire time, strung up on the gallows, blowing in the fucking wind.

They stay buying into the conniving gospel of every pyramid scheme preacher screaming about the next big thing that passes near them ... thinking "🤔 maybe this is going to be the "it" that fills the void left after I sold the soul I was too arrogant and dumb to believe in when I had the chance."

But what's...hilarious to me is like "what makes you think YOU even Could "sell" your soul?" You don't sell your soul. You commit to being a fucking idiot and you hang with other fucking morons as fucking brayingly stupid as your "intelligent" ass that corroborate your dumb judgment as Being the end all be all as yall bow to another idiot.

That's Why you get mad.

You could cut off a toenail and auction it off. It's gonna grow back. Your soul( if you have one) ain't going nowhere. Even when you're being a fucking fool. THAT'S not only why you get "mad" When you see someone who you see as good, diametrically opposed to your soft-shoed "bad."

That's what IN you that GETS mad.

Your rage isn't against a him or her outside of you living in the "light".

It's at yourself for being a petulant sissy dingleberry CHOOSING to sit your mean, dumb ass in a dark You know damn well you fuckin loathe.

You commit to the bit until it fucking chokes you.

They repackage the shit after you finally vomit it out and your asses lap that shit roughly right back up, restarting the flapping in the fucking wind.

You think you're better than all the little people you're looking down on while you're begging them for their lifeforce and attention to prove you're more than them. It's all rank stupidity.

You can barely make a Shit to sell yet you think You can make...and then Sell your soul?

You can't be horrified by the sentiments of the old when the mindsets of those younger than you fill you with pure joy. THIS has nothing to do with "Africa." It has to do with Blackness. It was quietly framed as who was secretly ANTI it as the focal point. For a very long time. Now? These kids own it. Let those in anti mode die off. The brunt of...these kids...get it.

I went to a public beach on my layover. The farthest reaches of one. Just kept walking…away. From all the gringos.

… A quiet, wiry old surfer dude the SAME shade of brick-red black I consciously basked in getting every summer, with shiny anime eyes like the ones in my head came up to me and grinned like I was one of his wayward grandkids… Spring of 2000. He’s how I found out the truth.

… Did the same thing our old grandparents did. Said “Go look. See for yourself.”

& I did. Revolutionary. Changed everything in regards to how I look at those islands and that occupation. Lowkey radicalized my ass.

Real Native. Not the ones that married into the families of the violent whites who decimated the brunt of those that looked like him and stole everything, only to still be fn miserablein fn paradise. & it’s been a tell ever since. 26 yrs deep. A marker.

Because that occupation started way back but Hawaii became a state in the 20th century. In fn 1959. The last queen and princess of Hawaii during annexation got attacked AS NIGGERS on those legendary train rides in the late 1890s. By fucked in the head whyte folks.

It used to make the…white…water carriers and whitewater carriage hit different from the Hawaiians who loathed Black folks, even as their elders and poorer communities were rocked with the same pathological diseases that ravaged poor Black communities. It engendered a disgust I never thought would subside or abate.

But eventually it did. Not by empathizing with the self -haters. Which is the BS course of action this culture prescribed for vitriolic stewing in response to another’s hatred. That only keeps the hate wheel going. Letting it go for real helped a lil but only by the space it made for the true salve.

…What healed it?

... but ya know what? COOL. BECAUSE IT'S A TELL. They're legislatively scraping the bottom of the barrel trying to foment fear over dumb shit in the populace because NOTHING else is working like it used to. They're really just... showing how much fear they Actually live in, in regards to the population of America looking directly at them for too long. They're fn terrified. & really hope their venomous fear has made the dumb...dumber. It has. They just don't recognize who the dumb really are these days, for the whole world to see.